Loneliness

Feeling lonely is never a fun thing. Whether it is about being single or feeling like you have no one to talk to. I know for me I'm one of those people who can feel lonely in a crowded place. It has been something I have struggled with and today as well.

And when we're lonely it is always a common thing to throw a pity party. We tell ourselves "No one cares about me" or maybe "why does everyone else have a boyfriend/girlfriend but me?" The truth is we never should feel lonely, because God is always there. He doesn't want us to feel lonely. He wants to use us for His Glory and if all we do is throw "pity parties" we aren't allowing Him to do that.

Relationships:
In 2007, I got a divorce and I became single after 5 1/2 years of marriage. I felt like I was going backwards in my life. All my friends were falling in love, getting married, and having children I was now single. And 4 years later I am still single. I'll be honest I have had some "pity parties" in these past years. But at the same time God has grown me a ton also.

My divorce ended because of emotional abuse (even though he would never admit that) and because of that kind of abuse I had a lot of baggage. God knew that I needed some "healing time" from that and He also knew that I needed some alone time with God. And if I had someone in my life I wouldn't have had the healing that I needed and the awesome moments I have had with God these past years.

God has shown me a lot about myself. He is teaching me about my strengths and has laid some awesome things on my heart. The guy in my life would have been a possible distraction and God wanted me to Himself for a little while. And honestly I have really treasured these past few years focusing on God and healing and growing. I know that it is all in God's perfect timing that He will bring that special person into my life.....tomorrow maybe?(hehe).

Focus and Serving:
One thing I have learned is that when I am lonely I get held captive by the thought of loneliness. But I don't have to be trapped by the thought I am lonely. That thought is from the enemy. God places things on our hearts and He wants us to do these things.

So the next time you are lonely ask yourself "what is my passion?" What has God placed on your heart to focus on? Is serving on your heart? Are you the type of person who likes to work with kids?

This blog is on my heart. I have always loved to write and I haven't in a long time but since I started this blog my love for writing has resurfaced. So the next time you have a "pity party" and feel like you have no one refocus on something that God has laid on your heart.

"Each one of us should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen." 1Peter 4: 10,11

This is a reminder that God is always there and He know you:
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast." Psalm 139: 7-10